hey you....

there are creaking noises coming from the room next door, the wind is howling like a wolf.

i find i come back here when things arent going so well, this blog world well its like a form of therapy. i miss it terribly..

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so anyone out there who wants to get the lowdown this is wats been happening in no particular order: quit art school, worked too much, drank lots of black coffee, smoked too many cigerettes, found a lovely boy, got utterly rejected by a lovely boy, missed my brother, found out how much i have changed, best friend got a boyfriend, gin and tonic, super cool stilletos, boys are losers, rose oil, deathly hangover, white lace bodysuit, black nails and feather earrings.

oh and....

discovering an old friend, crying at the drop of a hat, feeling so alone, feeling so alone, feeling so alone. "why aren't u happy today?" oh how i wanted to rant, rave, cry, tear my hair out and scream at the world just scream until it felt better. "no i'm ok, everythings just perfect"

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how selfish to feel so sad for no particular reason at all, wen the rest of the world seems so far worst off it doesnt seem fair, i just hope u dont all judge me for feeling this way.

x

i need and i mean need to get back to painting i think ive lost myself

help me find her?