no sleep.. no dreams..no lover inbetween the sheets

tonight i will go out, i will wear my hear in a messy bun. put on a pretty dress and walk around like i dont care about you. but secretly i do.
drink peach scnapps from the bottle, smoke my last cigerette,mindlessly dance, sway my head, scan the crowd your not there. i'll walk off like i don't care. but secretly i do.

today i decided that people don't wait for you, nobody has the patience they'll just move on forget you. like you were never there.even if you shared so much together.sometimes its never enough.

i'm back to not sleeping. which is always fun when you work everyday.

but i am so much more happier i think...life isn't fantastic but content. i look forward to little things like afternoon walks, cups of hot tea, finishing work early, smiles from strangers. they all help in making me feel better.

be happy dear strangers x

p.s/i hope your there tonight mr.

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